Ok, so I’m back to being a mess. Doesn’t seem to take much.
And now I think I’m after some advice if anyone wants to share some.
He emailed me Friday to say he’d noticed I’d changed my status on Facebook to single and that he was sad, and to cut a long email short asked me if I wanted to go camping in the lakes next weekend.
Of course I know what I want; for him to see me again and realise he’s been an idiot and can move 200 miles north to be with me. But a bigger part of me thinks I’m just wasting my time. I would like to think I’m capable of being his friend as I like his company, and would love to go walking with him. But I guess I don’t want to be used.
He isn’t willing to commit to me, but wants to have the part of me he wants – the walks. It doesn’t help that he’s currently judging me on a couple of inappropriately timed emails from me where I did manage to make myself sound neurotic. So should I go just to prove I’m not, what am I achieving? Is it going to help me? Am I just prolonging an agony that I thought I’d got over last week?
Am I being used? Or is he just offering an olive branch of friendship?
Someone more rational please tell me the answer?